I’m pretty sure I melted my brain…

….staring at a computer screen for ten hours a day will do that to a person. I always get a little discouraged when I’m in the final editing process of a new book. When I’m writing, I’m excited. When I’m publishing and promoting, I’m through the roof. When I’m editing…I just want to curl up into a little ball and never look at words again.

My overworked brain also gets increasingly paranoid. What if some other author out there had the same book idea as me, and they publish theirs first? What if someone steals my actual manuscript and publishes it first?! What if the whole indie publishing world comes crashing down before I get my book out there?! I should just publish my book RIGHT NOW. What are a few typos, when all of my work could go to waste?!…..My family usually has to talk me down. Publishing unedited books is bad. The world is not out to get me. Etc.

That all being said, the editing process is finally, FINALLY almost over. Then I’ll get to have a few months of joyous writing before I’m once again reduced to paranoid hysteria. (As a side note, I have a team of people that “edit” my books, but I’m a control freak and have to go over everything myself ten-million times as well).

Back to the brain melting. I don’t even remember what intention I had when I started this post, but I’m going to publish it so that no one can steal it! Muahahaha! *passes out on desk*

(Also I didn’t actually pass out, so I’ll end this post with a few fun reminders!)

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46 thoughts on “I’m pretty sure I melted my brain…

  1. I am feeling much the same way right now as I wait for my editor. I keep stopping myself from opening the draft and working through it, because then, it wouldn’t be the same as what I sent the editor and their hard work would be for naught.

      1. I have managed so far to resist but it gets harder everyday. Helps that they are editing book 2, I am working on Book 3, and have several other projects I am toying with as well, so I get my writing fix.

  2. I feel the same way. When editing my blog/stories I get overwhelmed by one minor issue. What if someone says I am plagiarizing when I am not or did not know about another story?

  3. I understand everything you said. I was worried about my first book because I knew other people wanted to write a fictional story about Charlie Faust, but I learned later I beat them to the punch as they could not figure out how to do the story. And proofreading and editing is a pain. I hate it, it goes to slow, but it must be done.

  4. I’m feeling a bit melty-brained myself, and mildly paranoid. Although my paranoia is more of the ‘What if it’s so bad it’s beyond saving?” variety. 😄 But then, I do not yet have your experience with getting things edited.

    1. Haha, I think we all experience the “What if it’s so bad it’s beyond saving?” paranoia from time to time. It usually happens to me about halfway through a new manuscript 😉

  5. I hate editing too. I write fiction every now and then, but my thesis for grad school will be a portfolio of poetry…it doesn’t get easier to edit the shorter the piece of work is haha. But in the end, it’s all worth the patience and work!

  6. Aren’t we all feeling this way… Working on a particular work at the moment and an idea just came to my head to blog… Unlike you, I somehow didn’t get to type it. I decided to snoop around to find fellow ‘sufferers’… How did the universe send me to this space to see this at the moment? Oh well, one of those things.
    Editing can be really herculean but it always does pay off. It doesn’t help when one is rushing a work – like I am doing … but I hope we get to clear all our mess.

    Well done!

    1. Haha, I always end up rushing in the end, so I feel ya. I’m already hard at work on another book, so I’ll be back in editing land soon enough. Good luck with your work!

      1. Ouch! I don’t envy you! Maybe I should befriend more editors 🙂

        It isn’t easy writing and editing just has to be the hardest part, right?

        Thanks! Yup, best of luck to you too!

  7. it’s so cool to feel that I’m not the only writer out there that is about to go crazy while editing… not that I’m glad you go to through that stage, but you get me 🙂
    Thanks for visiting my blog!

  8. Hi. We share that reluctance to edit. It affects me so badly I want somebody else to do it. Yet I have to. Because when I edit I fight against a horrible impulse to change the entire story. The first book I ever wrote was re-written seven times. Every time it was a different story. I was much younger and naive then, and I couldn’t understand why the story was changing like that. I explained the experience to my friend but he just laughed.
    And I don’t think you should worry about how many people have written about the same idea. If we all thought like that we’d never write anything. Did you read those thrillers set during WWII and the Cold War? About the CIA, KGB, MI6, Mossad, Nazis, Gestapo, etc? Robert Ludlum was my No.1. Fredrick Forsythe, etc. Almost every thriller writer touched on the subject. Yet the stories were somehow different. I don’t think two people can tell a story in exactly the same way.

  9. Yikes! I guess, I just wrote for my family and never expected to be a published author. The trepidation came when my manuscript was accepted! Now, what! So, it is at the editor. I am waiting to hear back. My first editor gave me wonderful reviews, but her day job interfered with finishing. So, I’m hoping the one I have now will be the same. It helps that my editors are part of the team. They only get paid if the book sells. We’ll see how it goes.
    Thanks for sharing, and for following.

    1. I know the feeling! When I first started writing, I just published for the fun of it (I’m self-pubbed), so I didn’t really worry about how my books would be accepted. It was pretty nerve-raking when they actually started getting read by strangers!

      1. The pretty nerve-wracking when they’re read by strangers is so true! I think I will understand better come August when my book is released. Right now, it’s people that I. Haven’t met in person-just on-line that are reading it.

      2. Thought I’d update you. Saw several times someone has clicked from here to view my website. Dragon’s Future released in August and is doing well. Book two in that series just released last week–Dragon’s Heir. Hearing people (adults for kids, and kids) asking when the next one is coming is so heartwarming. I also was able to publish a historical fiction, The One Who Sees Me. It reaches a different audience.
        Thanks again for the encouragement through editing. I wouldn’t trade my dragons editor for the world. She’s excellent!

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